Jacket for Summer??

So I found this jacket and I really like it. I thought it might be good for SummZ or Brig?? Do either of you like it? It is a size Large from Charlotte Russe. Let me know because I will list it if you don't like it. Yay for BDUB!! The fabric is suede and the red design is embroidered on , the fur is faux. VERY Winter Pocahontas

wanna laugh??

Today just want to share some things that make me smile ..

When Pigs swim...

I'm in a better mood. So I want to share this picture... I Love pigs..
This rabbit reminds me of the princess the ears anyway... lol I really like the pigs..... LOL

Another Day.

So another day has gone by and I feel like SHIT. Yes I spelled it with no *^$%# or anything!! Ha

I am sad, miserable and somehow moving through the days. I tried a new med today and I don't like it... or maybe it's just the BS in my life right now. AGGHh i'm in a reaLLY Crummy mood. I hate this crap. Now I'm going to post a photo that REFLECTS my mood...

Now I'm just pissed

See how the cycle goes...denial, sadness, now I'm starting to come out of the fog and see what's really up. NOW I'm pissed and I feel like someone has trespassed on my property, being myself and my life. He is really trying to ruin things for where I live hoping they won't let me stay.... Whatever. I will stay and will be happy. So F%$K off Loser. Here is what's in my mind..."Maybe, Just maybe, you could do Something if you had enough initiative to get a JOB and work... but since you don't, all you can do is follow my shadow and try to trip me up. Good luck with that. That's gonna get you far in this life. If you were half as aggressive with your own life as you are with me, you might actually BE successful instead of blaming everyone else for the fact that your not. If you didn't spend all your time Reliving EVERY single thing anyone in the world has ever done wrong to you maybe you could move forward. If you could stop being so paranoid and stop procrastinating you might not be such a sorry miserable boy. I did the most I could for you and treated you like a king. To bad you blew it and fucked it up like you have everything else in your life. Some people will never learn."
That's just what is going through my mind now. I realized this person is ONLY trying to hurt me now... NOT just physically, not just emotionally but now with every aspect of my life.
The only thing he doesn't know is ... I've known someone like him before. They end up digging themselves a hole so deep, I can just sit back and watch.
Now I'm going back to work... Here is the photo for the day!! Kind of morbid but gets the point across dosen't it?

Friday

Well, last night was an orientation... Info but left feeling yuck and then when I turned on my phone, I had missed some calls that i think were him. I don't know why he would wait till now to call but whatever. I was reading a book about this issue this morning and discovered that it's not usually about any reason. It's about control and power over someone. No amount of reasoning or explaining will change the fact that this person is doing this and for the satisfaction of feeling in control and powerful. AKA a bully, in my opinion. The book said no amount of explaining or acting a different way or changing ANYTHING about yourself will make this person happy. So I guess what I'm left asking is... Have I been believing the illusion of "do to others as you would have done to you?" Does it "Take one to know one?"... I have always felt that if you are good enough to a person they will treat you nice and love you back. Some people have definitely proven me wrong (BILLY). But others have loved me back. It seems that some only love you when you are gone and they realize what it felt like to be loved and cared about.

I definitely need to have a different perspective on this situation because I am taking all the responsibility on myself for Everything. When I sit and allow myself to think back about situations I remember a lot of things that bothered me along the way. I think my biggest problem is being to forgiving and not making other people be responsible for their own actions.

Sometimes he would say that he shouldn't be with a person like me... what I think that means is a person with an opinion.

I am having a lot of quite time to remember a lot of things and times where I felt hurt. Like when he told me that he was embarrassed to be around me with his friends because I looked and acted like a bimbo. That people would think I was easy because of my personality and friendliness. That I spoke like "diarrhoea from the mouth" meaning I talked to much and somehow belittled him by the conversations I may be having regardless of the topic of the conversation. He Always corrected me about everything from how to speak to how to clean the toilet. there are so many things that I am realizing now and I write them down so I can remember when I get that lump in my throat and feel like my heart is breaking. I always like to add a pic with my blog so here it goes for today.....

Getting Help

So today I'm supposed to go to this WI Distress place for an orentation. I'm looking forward to it because I am hurting over this situation and I feel so sad and bad and like a big ball of crap. I hope this will help me sort it out. It is hard to talk to people who are close to you about the situation because they usually tell you your stupid or crazy to feel a certain way, but that dosen't really help. It really only makes you feel like NOONE likes you. I know I'm supposed to feel a certain way and be more concerned about my own self and my health and feelings but That is NOT how I feel. I love this person and want to FIX this. But I know I cannot. I feel like I'm a failure. No one wants to hear this so I'm gonna save it for the place. Love you all who take the time to read this but most of all B and SUMz. Hope things will lighten up in the coming days. PEACE!!=)

Home pics

Here you can see the Good Year Blimp as it goes over the house on it 's way to circle the beach.

I have this ridiculous look on my face ...
very Grammaish... LOL We have alot of cats that cruise around the neighborhood... This one has an excellent haircut! He looks like he has really thick neck and legs like Muscular!! Hilarious...

Posing for a nice shot.

And last but not least the sunset... looks like paradise!!

more pics of the Home Piece...

This is the tangerine tree that is at the bottom of the steps in the back yard.
Victor making up the bed..The pink 1950's bathroom!!=)

I'm going to make it very retro with either dark brown(chocolate), or a charcoal gray...

And last but not least here I am..... =)

Yayayayaya New Home

I haven't taken a bunch of pics yet but one or two I will add more as I take them... It is goping to be great!! Take a look!! This is the views from the front patio. We are on the 2 nd floor and can see the intracoastal from the patio. Some of the boats that pass by are taller than the 2 story bldg. in front of us!! =)

Our apartment is on the end so we have a good view.It will look much better when I have the plants andf the table out here.

This is looking the other way from our front door.

This is me coming down the staires going to work... They are repainting the building and the railings soon. I love it here, it is so cute and the next set of pics will be better!! Yay for new Home!!

Hilarious for Summer!!

Summer, I thought you would appreciate this... I thought this would work for your costume we just have to put the back feet on wheels.LOL

Happy Friday

Well I have a lot of things to do today so I think I will just make a random list of Likes and Dislikes... FYI..LOL

1. I Love fresh sheets on the bed.



2. I LOve sharp pencils and sharp crayons.



3. I Hate people that don't answer when you speak to them( and you know that they hear you).



4. I HATE a dirty house, not so much clutter but Dirt, Floors, Bathrooms, kitchen, etc. Not that mine is like that... ( I don't have one) Just saying..



5. I Love selling things online.



6. I Love stilla makeup and angel perfume.



7. I Love buying things.. old or new just shopping!



8. I Love buying new underware at V.S. they are so cute and I hate old undies...



9. I Hate the bra I have on and all the bras I own... they suck and don't really do a good job of taming the ta's...;)



10. I Love my sister and my baby girl even if I don't tell them enough or sometimes am a pain in the touchas...



11. I Love the beach and being tan.



12. I Hate dry skin and cracked feet.



13. I Love Christmas!



14. I Love my mom and dad and wished I could see them more.



15. I Like my car especially when it's clean.

That's enough for now I suppose, I will add a picture to go along with my randomness...This fish is now an ornament! Or a Christmas gift. Summer remember when we had that fish you won at the fair and he jumped out of the bowl.... I stepped on this cold thing the next day and tripped out when I saw it was a fish on the carpet... aghhhhh

the Good Ole' days...=)

Some pics from Thanksgiving....

hahahaha we had fun, we laughed alot!! We ate forever!!

The funniest thing I've seen in a LONNNNGGGG Time!!

These 2 boys I saw riding down the street and thought it was the funniest thing I've seen in a while.Check out that lap top now that's the way to roll!!! LOL

Change...

There is A lot OF THAT GOING ON... EACH DAY IS MORE Challenging than the next... All I can hope for is complete and Utter CHANGE.. Here is a photo to go along with that!! Have a great day!!

Busy BEZZZZZ

Seems noone has time to write or read or comment on the blogg. I know this is how it goes when you are busy and have 1 million things to do. Believe me there were months when I had Nothing Nice to say even if I did have the time!! =)

I miss S and Brig very much and I just want to hear from you guys... I hope soon things will chill out a little and I can come visit. I love you and think I will hit the hay now. But not before posting a random photo for the day.... TTYL. XOXO

This ones called PLAY with ME...=)

This really is random... but reminds me of fairy land .. probably a happy place.

will SOMEBODY PLEASE POST something????

Brig or Summ.???? I am tired of looking at nothing.... BLAARRRGGGG>>>>>

You want pics ...Pics you shall have!! LOL

My sweet lil angel... I miss you sooo bad I wish I could kiss you and hug you every day!!!! Summer trying to get a tan and Victor trying not to get anymore tan!! =)
Zac, Heaven, summ and Harmony
Summer and Morgan... Dosen't Morgan look like Robin? She just turned 13!!

More Pictures for your viewing Pleasure!! =))

Summer and Bella chillin...

Me trying to catch a tan at the beach!!
A beautiful sunset...

Alot of beautiful pictures will post moire soon... I miss you and love you both.