Happy Halloween Everybody!!!!

Wow it's finally here. It seems this week was in slow motion. I was thinking about how sometimes you go through life with nothing exciting going on and it seems so monotionous and then like a cyclone this start happening. Like enough to fill up the whole year.
I was very sorry to her about Gracie, I was thinking that she was healing better.
I'm getting closer to being finished with Summer's costume. It is going to look really good. I'll take some pics and put them up on here when I get finished.
Well, not everyone has there power back on yet. Thank God we do. The weather has been cool but still would have been horrible to still be without power.
Well, I'm gonna run up to the store be back later.....=]

CAT 3 ...WILMA

This has certainly been a hurrince weekend. Well it looks like this is going to be a strong one. I put the rabbit up, put the rocks in a safe place and cleaned until i was to tired to do any more. I put water in every container i could find and rounded up the flashlights and candles. I'm as ready as I could be I suppose.
In the event, something worse happens, DO NOT let Billy keep Summer. I have made this clear to several people. IF something happens, contact Richard immediatly [mom has the #]. I do not anticipate this happening but you never know with these storms anymore.
I will call you asap, they expect alot of people to lose power but I will do my best to stay in touch.I love you and am very sorry for the kaos this weekend. I bet you would have rather drove Mom to aunt Kat's!=]
Any ways I'll be in touch soon. I love you very much!!!

Bracing for ANOTHER big one....

Here we go again... Another hurricane. Well only one more month till the season is overe, the way it looks they may have to start the abc'S over for the names.I'm going to get some gas and more batterys and then a few more grocerys. I have a lot of water frombefore but need to buy some canned stuff. I won't have time [or the $] to put up the storm shudders but hopefully won't need them.
The main concern I have is hat it will negatively effect bussiness, I need the money and CANNOT afford to be off for days at a time!!!
Oh well, i must go now but will be back soon...
Keeping our heads above water......

Halloween costumes

So, today was very nice, and I can't wait for the weekend. There is a Breast cancer walk this Saturday,I think Summer and I will go walk in it. The weather is supposed to get cooler, more like fall this weekend!! Maybe swing by the beach too. I am going to work on the Halloween costumes.Summers first and then mine, I'm not sure if I want to be a Pirate or a St.Paulie girl, either one I willl follow the same pattern type, just different fabrics and a little differnt here and there.I'm not sure yet, maybe somehting will inspire me. Well, I've got to go and hem my new shorts. I'm wearing them to work tomarrow.

in a hurry

well, last night i had some people over for CM and worked alot on my stuff, we had a good time and i wish i didn't have to go to work and could work on it some more today, but i'll have to wait till tonight. I am feeling better every day and really want to go and visit Brigette. Will keep checking the flights.
Well i must go to work.... hiphip...

what to do...

I am torn between 1 thing and another. I want so much to tell miss bitch what i think of her and her shitty attitude, and the other side of me says it wouldn't do any good because she would talk right over me anyway. But i think it would make me feel better.
I also have the worst headache ever!!!I keep trying to crack my neck and it won't budge.
Oh well, I'm going to watch my show and go to sleep.
Call me Brig...

Relief

ok, I woke up at 8 am thinking I had to o to work today. When I left work on Friday the schedule was not up yet, so I started to panic. I can not be late or miss another day. Anyways I got good news when I finally got a hold of someone there, not till Tuesday, because I had asked off for tomarrow because I have a dr.s appt for meds.
So the panic attack ended, thank god. So today Summer and I are going to figure out what we want to be for Halloween, I have a fe ideas but nothing positive yet.
Well i'm going to run to the grocery store and get some creamer for the coffee and i'm sure I have much more to say later....
Oh yeah, especially about the worst movie I've ever seen. I suffered through it last night until finnally i fast forwared to the end!HAHA More details coming up.=]

A new Beginning

First I need to learn how to spell.=]Well I took the first step.I didn't go last night. I feel good today. I am going to do only things I want to do today and throw out some more junk!!!

The more I think about Robin and her self rightouness the more it makes me sick to my stomach.I would love to tell her what I think but she does not listen she just talks right over you. So maybe i'll write a letter,to get it off my chest, and then maybe or maybe not send it.

I really am serious about making a change and I know it will not be easy but I know I can do it. The 1st thing I have decided is to let go of those 3 people that make me feel immobilized,Y,Robin,And Jeff! This will not be easy since they are my closest "freinds" here but they showed me on the 5th how they truly feel about me. Not that anyone in particular did BAD things to me, just the utter lack of respect and care shown was huge slap in the face. I know i've said all this before and the reason i'm putting it down is so I can remember....
Like you said B when things start going again and things seem back to normal, oyu tend to forget... and let things slide and fall right back into the same old rut. Well, not this time. I'd rather be alone thansuffer through another agonizing day with those negative, condesending attitudes.The pure use of manipulation and guilt that is used every day between Robin and jeff towards me is mindboggling.To keep me in my place and keep me feeling guilty about making my own choices.
Those choices may not always be right but at least they are mione. I listen and listen and listen to everyone elses issues and for once i ask them to reciprecate and they flip on me and tell me to stop wallowing. This is what i need to remember!!!!!! and as the old saying goes Leapords don't change their spots!!!!

Call me sister and also i set up the msn messenger...I also have a new email address for hotmail. i'll give it to you soon. Love you.

so many F*ing times...

well, where to start,I've had my eyes pried open thoroughly last night about who and what my friends are. I also made an astonishing discovery about my life and it's importance to me and the others around me. I realized that things are going to have to change if I want to be happier and live easier. I am going to make a plan and set some goals, I am looking forward to this and I want to start with...finding new friends!! I guess a lot of my problems start from procrastination, even about getting someone out of my life.

Funny thing is, the only people who do care and are there for me when I need them are my family{especially my sister} and Richard,Summer {who is the sweetest girl in the world}and that about sums it up.

I have had it with all this bullshit {to much to actually get into}and I'm ready to make a move and make some changes, because I don't like what is happening now.

For instance, I made a decision tonight about going somewhere that I did not want to go, I got a lot of flack for it, but I knew I would be uncomfortable once I got there. I was called selfish and several other things,but that's exactly why i didn't want to go. I chose not to be around someone who will make feel worse than I already do. Especially when it's only their distorted opinon, not based on any facts.I hope this is making sence,it is to me, and hopefully to who's reading it.

Also, one last thing,I hope I don't make anyone feel that way{meaning:being condesending and judgemental and always negative} when I talk to them, because it's not a nice feeling and I don't want to be that type of nasty person.{someone who under no circumstances ever admits to any mistakes or wrongdoings but is the first to tell you about yours!}

Well, i think i'll go watch a movie now, and read the paper. Brig i'm going to try to call you again in a few... love you!!! I really want to come there and visit soon!!!!I miss you.

I'm Back...and it's my Birthday....

hello everyone, it's my birthday and I'm feeling Great. I'm about to go to work and then come home and open my presents from Summer. I hope work goes by fast.
I'm going to make a ist of accomplishments I would like to have done by next year, some goals if you will. 2 sets actually, some off the charts goals that may stretch farther than 1 year, and then some reasonable ones that can be accomplished. when I make the list then I will fill you in. I'm off to work now but shall return!!!