I think I should take a timeout from the things and people that I have been conversing with lately. The way things are headed is not the direction I want to go. There is alot of misunderstanding and pent up aggression along with a good amount of repressed feelings about a whole bunch of issues.
The events of the recent past... The hardships have made these feelings/issues come to the surface for everyone.
In the interest of the relationships themselves, I feel I should step back and not try to make these people understand me or where I coming from. It is probably impossible at this time and maybe ever. I have so many things to do and no one really to depend on for support.
By that I mean Moral support not financial!! The more I talk.. the less anyone hears and the more detached from me they become. It is really nothing new, I guess I had thought we had moved past all that but was I ever wrong!! To quote one such individual..."somethings never change." When I try to make a point or ask this person for help with something they either flat out say no, or act as if they don't get what it is I'm saying... which I think is very clear... Somehow they seem to think I am blaming them???? When in reality, I'm asking them to help me explain something to someone else. I thought that maybe they can reach this person and help them understand, because their relationship is different. But all they hear is that I'm somehow accusing them or asking something that is so absurd they can't comprehend it. I love these people and hope that it will not always be this way, like I said before I thought those days were behind us, but again I was wrong. In the best interest of everyone, I will not be burdening anyone but myself with any issues that may arise for now on. I probably should have known this from the beginning but hind sight is 20/20. A final thought.... This is not meant to make anyone feel
GUILTY . This is not one of those "mom trips"... but how I really feel without any attitude or preconceived notions of this changing anything. All it's meant to be is a statement of how I feel and what I think I should do about it.
when I was at the Marriott. I told you the story of how I saw these ears pooping out of the grass and then the kitten stood up and I almost died!! It is so cute and soft!! The most playful thing you have ever seen!!!! Plays with it's Shadow and attacks the stops sign post... quite cute it bounces like a ball through the grass. the mom is blind and in bad shape but the kitten looks great... If I knew I had the Cha Ching to get it the shots and equipment cats need to do there thing I would go pick it up!!! Take a look at these pics....... YAY 
This is the mom cat..... looks kinda bad but .....i don't know someone that works there is feeding them, I see the bowls of food full each day...
