Happy Friday

Well I have a lot of things to do today so I think I will just make a random list of Likes and Dislikes... FYI..LOL

1. I Love fresh sheets on the bed.



2. I LOve sharp pencils and sharp crayons.



3. I Hate people that don't answer when you speak to them( and you know that they hear you).



4. I HATE a dirty house, not so much clutter but Dirt, Floors, Bathrooms, kitchen, etc. Not that mine is like that... ( I don't have one) Just saying..



5. I Love selling things online.



6. I Love stilla makeup and angel perfume.



7. I Love buying things.. old or new just shopping!



8. I Love buying new underware at V.S. they are so cute and I hate old undies...



9. I Hate the bra I have on and all the bras I own... they suck and don't really do a good job of taming the ta's...;)



10. I Love my sister and my baby girl even if I don't tell them enough or sometimes am a pain in the touchas...



11. I Love the beach and being tan.



12. I Hate dry skin and cracked feet.



13. I Love Christmas!



14. I Love my mom and dad and wished I could see them more.



15. I Like my car especially when it's clean.

That's enough for now I suppose, I will add a picture to go along with my randomness...This fish is now an ornament! Or a Christmas gift. Summer remember when we had that fish you won at the fair and he jumped out of the bowl.... I stepped on this cold thing the next day and tripped out when I saw it was a fish on the carpet... aghhhhh

the Good Ole' days...=)

Some pics from Thanksgiving....

hahahaha we had fun, we laughed alot!! We ate forever!!

The funniest thing I've seen in a LONNNNGGGG Time!!

These 2 boys I saw riding down the street and thought it was the funniest thing I've seen in a while.Check out that lap top now that's the way to roll!!! LOL

Change...

There is A lot OF THAT GOING ON... EACH DAY IS MORE Challenging than the next... All I can hope for is complete and Utter CHANGE.. Here is a photo to go along with that!! Have a great day!!

Busy BEZZZZZ

Seems noone has time to write or read or comment on the blogg. I know this is how it goes when you are busy and have 1 million things to do. Believe me there were months when I had Nothing Nice to say even if I did have the time!! =)

I miss S and Brig very much and I just want to hear from you guys... I hope soon things will chill out a little and I can come visit. I love you and think I will hit the hay now. But not before posting a random photo for the day.... TTYL. XOXO

This ones called PLAY with ME...=)

This really is random... but reminds me of fairy land .. probably a happy place.

will SOMEBODY PLEASE POST something????

Brig or Summ.???? I am tired of looking at nothing.... BLAARRRGGGG>>>>>

You want pics ...Pics you shall have!! LOL

My sweet lil angel... I miss you sooo bad I wish I could kiss you and hug you every day!!!! Summer trying to get a tan and Victor trying not to get anymore tan!! =)
Zac, Heaven, summ and Harmony
Summer and Morgan... Dosen't Morgan look like Robin? She just turned 13!!

More Pictures for your viewing Pleasure!! =))

Summer and Bella chillin...

Me trying to catch a tan at the beach!!
A beautiful sunset...

Alot of beautiful pictures will post moire soon... I miss you and love you both.

After a LONG absence I will post some photos!! =)

These are from summ's trip to visit... THE birthday Weekend!!Here is Summer's Cake...

Sum at the beach,

Friends at the party..
The big SURPRISE....

Me with the cake... My birthday dinner at Bahia Cabana...
Victor and I...
Blinded by the sun at the airport!!!
I know these are kinda out of order but tomorrow I will post more and have them in the right order!!! I miss you SUMMS and BRIG!!

A survey for fun

I AM …trying to get ahead of the game.
I WANT…to feel secure.
I HAVE …alot to look forward to.
I KEEP … getting up and trying.
I WISH I COULD … go to the scrapbook crop at least once a week.
I HATE … when people act arrogant
I FEAR … snakes
I HEAR …the wind blowing in the palm trees and it makes me smile.
I DON’T THINK …. I'm ever going to get all my stuff moved!!
I REGRET … several things...
I LOVE … my daughter, my sister, my boyfriend also sharp crayons and pencils!
I AM NOT … perfect or condescending
I DANCE … everyday!!
I SING …in the car
I NEVER … meant to get so behind.
I RARELY … get to go on vacation.
I CRY WHEN I WATCH … summer leave the airport.
I AM NOT ALWAYS … energetic
I HATE THAT …I'm not in the best shape I could be, mentally and physically.
I’M CONFUSED ABOUT … what tomorrow will bring.
I NEED … a savings account!!=)
I SHOULD … be back on my feet soon!!

Life teaches Hard Lessons...

So how is it that a person can give such excellent advice to everyone else and not use the same advice in her own life? I am a perfect example of this particular phenomenon. I see myself sliding farther and farther into a place that I would have never excepted before. Abuse from people has a way of sinking inside you and eating you up from the inside.
I used to consider myself a STRONG person and now I feel like ..... well it's to horrible to write. Do I see what's happening to me?? Yes I do... and I'm doing all I personally am capable of doing to make my situation better. Although it just seems to be not enough.
Sometimes I think I deserve the abuse and nasty words, like they are somehow a comfort. Like if I get punched hard enough (either with fists or with words) it will somehow knock all the pain away. Maybe even kill the pain. I know this sounds so ignorant and stupid... but I'm just writing what's in my heart.
What I want most of all is to love someone and be loved back the same way. I think I give a lot of love to the people I want to and I don't understand why they won't give it back in the same way. Maybe I'm just crazy and was ruined along time ago on how to feel love the right way. The thing is, I don't punch or belittle the person I love, that's not how I show love, so why do I keep finding these people who are incappable of loving me?
Ones have said, "you must love yourself before anyone can love you". Well I do love myself, to a degree, but then I start wondering if I was so wonderful then why dosen't anyone care about me.
I'm probably just really hurt right now and I'm sure my aching heart will heal in time, but for now I feel that smothering, all comsuming pain that sneeks up on me whenever a relationship crashes. I have the strongest urge to rush in and fix it at any expense.. especially my own. I wish I could feel confident and strong, loved and secure. I want to be held and comforted. Is that really to much to ask for?
For any one reading this ... thanks at least for reading and if you want to comment then please do.
Until next time... Peace.

Daily Reminder...

Just a thought for the day....

Happiness...

"Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful."

" The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for."

This is the kitten I found ....

when I was at the Marriott. I told you the story of how I saw these ears pooping out of the grass and then the kitten stood up and I almost died!! It is so cute and soft!! The most playful thing you have ever seen!!!! Plays with it's Shadow and attacks the stops sign post... quite cute it bounces like a ball through the grass. the mom is blind and in bad shape but the kitten looks great... If I knew I had the Cha Ching to get it the shots and equipment cats need to do there thing I would go pick it up!!! Take a look at these pics....... YAY

This is the mom cat..... looks kinda bad but .....i don't know someone that works there is feeding them, I see the bowls of food full each day...

A time out...

I think I should take a timeout from the things and people that I have been conversing with lately. The way things are headed is not the direction I want to go. There is alot of misunderstanding and pent up aggression along with a good amount of repressed feelings about a whole bunch of issues.
The events of the recent past... The hardships have made these feelings/issues come to the surface for everyone.
In the interest of the relationships themselves, I feel I should step back and not try to make these people understand me or where I coming from. It is probably impossible at this time and maybe ever. I have so many things to do and no one really to depend on for support. By that I mean Moral support not financial!! The more I talk.. the less anyone hears and the more detached from me they become. It is really nothing new, I guess I had thought we had moved past all that but was I ever wrong!! To quote one such individual..."somethings never change."
When I try to make a point or ask this person for help with something they either flat out say no, or act as if they don't get what it is I'm saying... which I think is very clear...
Somehow they seem to think I am blaming them???? When in reality, I'm asking them to help me explain something to someone else. I thought that maybe they can reach this person and help them understand, because their relationship is different. But all they hear is that I'm somehow accusing them or asking something that is so absurd they can't comprehend it.
I love these people and hope that it will not always be this way, like I said before I thought those days were behind us, but again I was wrong.
In the best interest of everyone, I will not be burdening anyone but myself with any issues that may arise for now on. I probably should have known this from the beginning but hind sight is 20/20.
A final thought.... This is not meant to make anyone feel GUILTY . This is not one of those "mom trips"... but how I really feel without any attitude or preconceived notions of this changing anything. All it's meant to be is a statement of how I feel and what I think I should do about it.

It's been a long time...

and I haven't had much to say But now I think I'm ready to roll again... Starting with a picture...me and V swinging at the park!

and ending with one.... This is the Bat Mobile at the Walgreen's in Weston... he must have needed some Tylenol!! hahahahahahahahah

Baby Bella!!

She was finally born on May 20, 2008!! My friend's Mark and Maureen had this beautiful baby girl this week!! She is a beauty!!

The Prom....

Summer looked soooo beautiful for her junior prom!! Awesome limo and more!! Here are some photos....My Little Princess...

Eric and Summs
The group that rode in the limo... Badazz Limo BTW!!!
He Wishes!!!
Cheese!!

What is Compassion?

Does this word even exsist in anyone's vocabulary anymore??

Challenges...

Everyday brings it's own. I am making it and learning alot...along the way. I feel like saying "one day these will be the good ole days" but that is so cliche!!! How about a random photo???? This was me at the old apartment with crazy red shoes!!!! Woot Woot!!!!

I'm LOOSING my mind!!

Brig, I've tried to call you several times today and I think you must be out riding the horse. I need to talk to you because I'm loosing my mind! I get so upset and frustrated that I can't even speak!!! This is really to much and certain ppl, just don't get it and they actually are sometimes making my frustrations worse. I need to talk to you in person because I don't think writing this down here is a good idea!! =) so I will call you again soon. I love you very much and miss you!!

Monday Monday... a better week??

hi. So I off to the races and hope this week will produce a more positive outlook for me!!This ones for you Brig!! Lov ya.

Tempelton

lol remember him from the old Charlotte's Web? He always makes me laugh.. Crummy guy!! Here is another cool pinup cartoon style!! =))

Fun from the Looneybin...

A pinup Malificent from Sleeping Beauty...=)

HI, I had an interview today... Seemed to go good. will know in a few days I suppose!!

Busy tryin' to get

a new job... and still searching... When the time is right I guess... Here is a picture to fill the space!! =)