Almost Labor Day Weekend!!!!

So... Wednesday was quite enlightening. I" saw" a lot of shit that opened my eyes to so many things... This thing with JC is interesting. I'm not sure where it will go.... I have to learn to be patience, and obviously change my approach. Cause this shit ain't workin' for me right now. I'm trying REALLY REALLY hard right now to step back... so far today it's going good but it is only 12 :15. which is not saying alot!!! =) Now it is 2:03 and I'm starting to tweak. This is not easy, why do i care so much about it. Don't I know by now that things that suck to begin with usually don't change. I love it when I'm with him, but this is starting to be alot more painful than it is rewarding. I feel like I can't ever seem to balance my life, At least now my bills are getting paid!!! This is more painful to me, because relationship issues are much more important to me than other shit.
So, now it's 4:00 and he called me a few minutes ago, we talked for a little bit and I feel better... of course... I think I may see him on Tuesday... if I don't die from Withdrawl by then.... It will have been 2 weeks... which is a life time for a person like me....... AGGGGHHHHH
I have to think of something to do this LONG weekend to help me get through this... Maybe the beach... or shopping....

My Sister....

I hope you do come down for my birthday, It will be great ! I would really like that and we will do some fun stuff. I'm writing this in the blog instead of calling because I didn't get to stop at the Phone place to pick up a new charger yet. On the way home.
I did however go to a place this morning I have to tell you about. Got what I was telling you about , which is very good and remind me to tell you what they said about TEEN TUESDAYS. I will be here at work till about 6:00 so call me and I'll call you right back from here or I'll call on the way home when I can use the car charger. Love you BRI!!

Sad times

I had Finally had enough of the waiting game and I went off about how I feel and think about the situation at hand. Was understood and we agreed that I was right to feel this way given the circumstances. Timing is everything I guess.
Obviously I need and am looking for a certain level of relationship and it wasn't really working out like that.I wasn't getting what I need and it was making life quite shitty and painful for me. I don't really understand how to be in between with someone like that nor do I care to be that way. The idea of not feeling secure about my situation in a relationship whether it be a friendship or something more does not appeal to me. I would rather feel nothing than suffer the agonizing effects that those types of situations cause. I am different. I may require a little more attention than others but I think I'm worth it and I know I'm not asking for more than I'm willing to give. It wasn't something that anybody was denying.
So in the end, The situation for now is not going in my favor, which suxs ass but at least I know where I stand and don't feel immobilized. Things could change I know he cares about me alot and he knows how I feel about him.
Time can change alot of things , I have to accept that this is what is meant to be today and see what happens next without trying to force anything .I DON'T want to create another Jeffrey situation. Even though I did get what I thought I wanted from him, (especially now) he's saying all the things i always wanted to hear and feelings I always thought I wanted from him. It's just that it's to late now , I don't want or need that from HIM anymore!! Oh well, I guess life is a never ending cycle of learning... God knows I keep learning everyday!!

So now I'm gonna take my still tired self back to bed... went out with Robin last night and had fun but didn't sleep a lot!! =) Maybe I'll go to the BW tomorrow and that will make me smile... I'll limit myself to only buying things for myself not to sell. That might cut down on the extra stuff I bing back at least for this trip!!! LOL

Flippin Fridays!!!!

Yes I can't believe it's Friday again!! I want to do something fun this weekend and I'm not sure what. Billy told S he may be coming down here this weekend I hope to God he doesn't but who knows... Whatever. So now I get the update B is not coming THANK GOD and whatever else the weekend holds is yet to be seen... I have a feeling it could go alot of different ways!!!
I'm still at work and am about to leave but thought I'd finish up this Post while I wait for my work to finish printing.... If nothing else this weekend I will get a tan even if I have to have it SPRAYED on and I will prob go by the BW?. Maybe.Got to get rid of some of the stuff I have in there now!! LOL Well TGIF!!!! as they say in this working man's world!!!! ROFLMAO

First day of School

So this is S on the first day of school starting her Junior year... She looks like the same sweet monkey that walked out the door going to Kindergarten with that XLarge Minnie Mouse Backpack!! She is so beautiful and I think this year is gonna be a great one!!!
Her hair has gotten so long and she is quite a Boom chicka mowmowwww
BTW B I DID HAVE THIS READY TO GO BUT MISS CHOP BUSTER I DIDN'T UPDATE IT. I WAS SO TIRED LAST NIGHT I COULDN'T DO MUCH OF ANYTHING!!! P.S. I don't know how it got in all caps but I'm not gonna change it now...LOL.
Keep a look out for more news later today!!!! WOOT WOOT!! Can't wait to see the new goods from the BW!!!!!!

THE DRESS

SO THESE are the pics of S in the dress she looks great as usual. I will have to go and do it again.

I'm sure it will look even more beautiful in the right color!!! Wow now just wait till you get a load of what I'm gonna look like in this dress.... ROFLMAO!!!

Broken Record.....

It's really beautiful outside,but Hott as hell. I tried to get a tan but about had heat stroke instead. I am slightly more tan but should probably just go to the tanning bed. and get a spray!!! hehehe S just came home from work early to get her stuff ready for the first day of school tomorrow. Yeayyyyy.
As for me I'm in a horrible state, agonizing through each day, and the minutes crawl by as if time is standing still. I live for the moments when I get to squeeze some attention out of this thing... and those days and times are way to far in between... I try to find ways to distract myself and get time to pass by quicker but the only thing that actually is a distraction is gonna get me into more trouble probably. I'm not getting what I need but I'm not so sure what to do about it. I feel like throwing up. Literally, I don't know if it's because of me or this but it is bad. Why is this such a hard and Horrible thing for me? How fricking long is this going to hurt like this? aggggg I guess I'll shut the F$#K up now because it getting redundant.

What a busy week!!!

Man this week went by fast and I didn't even get to blogg... never fear I'll try and make up for it ASAP!!!! Was in a good mood but as the day goes on getting in crappy mood. ??? Have no explanation except that I'm a freak and love to torture myself.
I have to do a few things before tomarrow so I better go and do them.... will return...

Treasurey Junk ... but not junk to me.=)

well, this is gonna be a funny one i think, I keep trying to upload pics and it won't do it... better come back in a bit...2:11 pm.Okay I'm back and it's actually 2:36 in the A.m. so this is gonna be fast... This is the Brighton purse I FOUND.
haha Summ in full KH glory... even doing her not again slump over.... She says even the Bros wouldn't dig this getup?? but how little does she know bout that situation!!!
Promise a more coherent and More enjoyable post tomorrow!!! Love ya Bri.

SummerTime

Summer in So Fla. It's hot and sunny. Wish I had gotten to the pool today but had a fun with my boy, We hung out and then I worked just a tiny bit. Actually I did not much at all. Just relaxed. We watched a movie last night called The Number 23. It was good, I liked it alot. Well, me and S are about to watch a movie now. But here are some pics for your enjoyment.

ROFLMAO

This is S wearing the Vintage dress that I found at the BW ,she was horrified but I told her it would take a better pic if someone had it on opposed to hanging on the wall. We laughed so hard....hahahah

I want what I want...

So at this point I can't think of a good title for this blog but... I'm sure by the end of it, I will have an appropriate one. I'm not sure what to say today, need to work and list and also ship but Of course not in the mood at the moment. My boy came over last night and we watched the movie Factory girl... It was okay I didn't LOVE it, but it was OK ( the movie that is )=0 =). anyway... took Summer to drop off some stuff at Plato's closet and look around. Going to the mall on Friday to school shop for her. Probably will try to find a few things for myself as well. I think I'll post some pics of something.. let me think...Okay it's late and I'm tired. I'm gonna go to sleep now because I'm starting to get cranky!!! hehehehe Looks like I found a title...

One More Time....

" musics got me feeling so free, I want to celebrate . Celebrate and dance so free." Yay baby's better and probably will see today!! I know this is humorous to you others, but I feel like a little kid in a candy shop!! Ridiculous? Maybe... but I like it sooooo,what else matters! Hehehehe it's been a lovely day!!

Just another Manic Monday!!

Well, as my day progresses I'm trying so hard to not think bout the boy but it's just not possible. I know some things that I don't want to write about on here but It's on my mind like nothing else. What pains me the most is not being able to say to him what i need to say. It's just like when I needed to say something to J and Yvonne, No matter what their response is... it felt better to have it out there and for them to know where I was coming from.

I certainly want a certain response from my boy but it will be easier on me no matter what ends up to know and not feel like things are floating. At certain times with certain ppl floating is not so bad, but in this situation is suxs ass!! I'm not going to give up though till I get my point across, so keep you posted.

Also will be ordering CM again soon so if you want or need anything let me know, as per our conversation before . IE pricing, AKA M KAY pricing. only for you, me and Shannon on the CM though. K? love ya miss. hope you have a blast at the beach!! David's Bridal here we come.=)

Clean House!!

Today I feel like throwin' some shit out... so I am!! Crap that takes up to much room. Some will go in the dumpster and some to donation, but as long as it's not sitting out here where I have to look at it, I'm happy. Starting this blog early today, at the same time, I'm cleaning up, vacuuming and cleaning the floor mats of my car... and it's about 500 degrees outside so that's why I decided to come in and take a break!!! be back in a while.... So not much else to say.. REALLY!!

Days go by.... and still I think of you...

So It's Saturday and I have lost all concept of time. My mind is wrapped around one thing right now and that's all I am concerned with no matter what it is I'm doing. It doesn't keep me from doing anything, just always on my mind. Sometimes in a good way but mostly in a worried way. I went to the mall and bought makeup, that was broken on my Atlanta trip and FORCED myself to walk around different stores for a LONG time, just to be doing something, S was at work and I didn't want to work anymore. Even so I wasn't really looking at stuff mostly jut thinking of this particular situation and how I'm reacting to it. It's almost like an allergy... LOL...B I know you'll love that one!!

PICTURES OF ME!!!

A small fun filled photo shoot!!! ENJOY the wackiness of Slamantha!!

Check out Donovan in the background....

"You know I love you and I'm the cutest MOM you've ever seen...!!" Summer looks like WOW I never thought of it that way!!! Donovan... he doesn't care... He has on his new outfit that I bought him and he has his PAPPi!!!